The Mission:
Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.

The Criteria:
Tasks must be specific (ie. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (ie. represent some amount of work on my part).

Why 1001 Days?
Many people have created lists in the past - frequently simple goals such as new year's resolutions. The key to beating procrastination is to set a deadline that is realistic. 1001 Days (about 2.75 years) is a better period of time than a year, because it allows you several seasons to complete the tasks, which is better for organizing and timing some tasks such as overseas trips or outdoor activities.

Start Date: June 11, 2007
Goal Date: March 8, 2010

-Items in italics are currently in progress
-Items that are stricken out are completed

( 101 in 1001 )

I feel like one of those people you see in movies that are the secondary characters that are really stupid.  The sort of bimbo, blonde ones that you're always hoping gets hit by a car or something because they're just too moronic.
I never feel smart.  I go with my heart all the time and never actually pay much attention to what my head has to say.
I would never watch a movie if someone like me was the main character.  =/

Other things that made me happy today!
+ Going to the mall with Jessica and buying POKEMON ACTION FIGURES OMFG as well as christmas presents I guess those were important too
+ Also pokemon and zelda manga lol
+ Hanging out at the FISH center and listening to the christmas concert there and singing carols :B
+ I HAD MY FIRST ODWALLA TODAY IT WAS AMAZING
+ Watching Treasure Planet and making really inappropriate sexual comments the whole time

Day Three.
I woke up thinking, for some reason, that Danny was next to me.  I totally forgot that we broke up.  I just leaned over to put my arm over him, listen to his heart, hear him breathe.  When I finally realized what I was doing, I didn't really move.  I felt sick all day long.  I cried a lot.  I didn't go out until about 6pm, nor did I eat anything until then.  I talked to him about it a lot, which was still hard.  I'm okay with the way my life is right now, but I just... I was so much more happy.  I had so much more.  Every once in a while I just remember those things, like holding him in my arms and just feeling him breathe.  When I went out to get sushi at night I felt a lot better, but it's really hard to still be so upset.  I don't know why this whole week just decided to hit me today.  I hope this is the only day for a while.
Possible medical note?:  I took a shower in order to calm down in the late afternoon, and was sitting there trying to relax when I... well, I hate saying fainted, but I defintely just woke up lying down not remembering how I'd gotten there.  I don't know for how long but it must have been a couple minutes or so.  This was probably because I was stressed and hadn't eaten anything or had any water all day.


amazing college story of the day:
So I went to sleep at like 2:30 in the morning and woke up at like 2:45 to hear someone saying the name of my roommate over and over again.  I  woke up and pulled the pillow off my head to see some guy standing there in the room.  I could see him because he was still holding the door open.  I was just like "what's up man" because I was too disoriented to make a reasonable response, like telling him to get the fuck out.  He discussed wanting to "kick it with us" because "the night was young" in a slurred tone until I was just like "umm, I don't think we're going anywhere, you should go back to sleep", when he was finally pulled out of my room by one of his friends, who had apparently not noticed him wandering off.  He wasn't so much creepy as he was drunk, although he did proposition me.  Oh well.  ONLY AT COLEGE AM I RIGHT GUYS
am remembering to lock the door from now on

1. Post about something that made you happy today even if it's just a small thing.
2. Do this everyday for a week without fail.
3. Tag 8 of your friends to do the same.

HOLY GOD GUYS
I LOVE FIREFLY.
I have only watched four episodes but this show is epicly amazing.  Later today I'm going to the mall to get Christmas presents and I'm excited yaaaay! :D

Day One.
I am on a total enthusiasm high right now, had started yesterday and bled into today. I'm writing in christmas cards, doing a little work on my Italian project, and working on stuffing stockings, which are my presents for my friends and roomies here.  I am probably so happy because I hvae so much fun stuff to do.  
My happiness is dangerously close to a DGAF attitude imo.  But right now I don't really mind.  

ALSO YESTERDAY I learned that one of my big's friends was a Gryff in H_E !!! She even played on their Quidditch team.  SMALL WORLD!  I got really excited about it, haha.

So the christmas season is coming up soon (note how I say the christmas season, not the finals week, asfdjkhah) and I am SO PSYCHED YAAA! I love Christmas and everything about Christmas.  So I just realized that I love a lot of you guys a ton (all my TOR buddies, how long have I known you for? like three years? four? jeez!) and I really want to do something I haven't done before... Christmas cards! I have a stack of them ready and waiting for procrastination for me to fill them with all sorts of christmasy joy and joyness on my desk.  So I'm gonna screen comments for this one and if you want one, just leave your address and I'll send one your way!  I promise I'm not a creeper... I'm too lazy for that kind of thing. 

HURRAY CHRISTMAS!!!

:D

from this, strangely dead on--especially the ending and beginning.

You are seeking protection against anything which might seem to be exhausting you or tiring you out. It would appear that you are seeking a life of security and physical ease, free from any problem or disturbance.

You are very orderly, methodical and self sufficient. You demand and need the respect, recognition and understanding of all those who enter into your sphere on influence.

We are all conditioned by our environment and as such we respond to people's perception of ourselves, but you feel that conditions are not right at this time. You are experiencing certain reservations that are precluding you to develop a particular relationship, business or personal, that is being offered. It is 'make your mind up time' - the decision is all yours, but whatever decision you make, it will be the right one.

Having experienced considerable disappointment of late and not knowing quite what to do about it this has led you to suffer a great deal of agitation and anxiety. You are trying very hard to make favourable impressions all round. You feel that you have a right to do anything that you wish without being condemned for your beliefs. Everything seems to be going against you and you feel helpless to change the situation. The possibility of failure is most upsetting and this situation is leading to untold stress. You honestly believe that the situation is not of your making - it is not your fault - you have been misled and abused by those that you trusted, but you are trying to look at the situation quite dispassionately. Would you perhaps not agree that this situation could be regarded as unrealistic self justification?

You feel worn out - you have no energy and your depleted vitality has created intolerance for any further stimulation. You feel inadequate and this subjects you to agitation, irritation and acute distress from which you try to escape by refusing further direct participation. You have become very wary and cautious but you have an inner strength. You have that determination to get your own way and succeed in the end.

I made a whole list for getting better at being needy to use to actually fix myself.  I made it for being able to relax me or help me be rational or to look at things in a way that didn't constantly hurt things all the time.  I was really excited.

Now I'm using that same list to help myself get over breaking up with my best friend. 

I'm really upset and I guess there's nothing to do to get better then to let time go by.  I'm scared of where love goes after a breakup.  I always felt like if people cared hard enough, then everything would be okay in the end.  I don't want to give up on love.  But I hurt.  I feel scared and worried and despairing and hopeless.

Maybe things will be okay.  But for now, I feel pretty sad.

I am going to get better at this.
I'm starting today.

I had an amazing weekend at home.  I felt bad because I didn't spend as much time with my family as I should have but I spent a lot of time with my friends and it was really good fun.  Seeing Molly and Brad and Danny and Tommy was GREAT!  I really missed everyone and am glad I only have to wait two weeks before I can see them again. <3 I love ice skating, and went twice while I was there.  Danny is apparently amazing at it and we spun around and were cutesy and I loved it. The play was AMAZING and I honestly don't know why people were trippin.  I thought it was hilarious.   I love dramakids!!

I have a New Year's Resolution this year.  It's a good one.
I want to be fixed on the now.

( Edit: I feel like a douche. )

okay so I wrote this before but idk where it went

good things about today
+seeing the one-acts, all sexy and some extremely sad.  they were really great. then I ran lines with my scene partner for our final tomorrow, which we are hopefully gonna rock
+studying. vaguely. in the library with liz, jessica and billy. I ate chex mix and talked to alex into getting me a recommendation with the library so hopefully I can work there next semester/in the fall. almost went with him to play wiiiiiiiiiiii but I wanted to study lol.
+talking to danny on the phone about finals and weekend stuff :D

i want to play pokemonnnnnnn. :(

Good about today:
+Going to see the one-acts at school.  All of them were heavily sex-comedies and I loved two out of the three.  The third one broke my heart, the second was hilariously sexy and LOL inducing, and the first one was a snorefest.  But it was awesome.  Afterwards my scene partner and I walked to the circle running our lines for our final tomorrow.
+ "Studying" with Liz, Billy, and Jessica.  I played Liz's video game for a while (she's in a video game design class and is epicly good at it) and tried to study, but ended up going with Jessica to get Chex Mix at the vending machine, where we saw Alex, who said he'd put my name on the roster so I could possibly have a job at the library next semester.  He invited us to play wiiiiiii with him but we declined, as we had to pretend to work anyway.  Later we ate PB&J sandwiches and read through our film aestetics book.  
+Talking to Danny on the phone about the weekend and finals stuff


I really want to play pokemon.  It's been consuming me all. weekend. long.
sooon, my pokemon pals. sooooooon.

FUCK YEAH OBAMA
everyone left their dorm rooms at the same time after Obama's speech and everyone all just started cheering at the same time.  it was amazingly awesome.  I'm just really really giddy and happy.  we went to in-n-out and got strawberry milkshakes and I was still so excited I went and cycled for twenty minutes on the treadmill.  yaaaaaaaaay!

also about obama's speech
it was good, I admit... but let's be honest... who else wanted to hear about what kind of puppy they were getting?  also, I now want to see a disney chanel movie feturing obamadog in the white house.  sliding down banisters, being cute, foiling terrorists and such.
(seriously though it was amazing.  I clapped at the end.  we live in exciting times.)

I feel like such a psycho.  I cry all day about stupid stuff, go to the library to get a fax, am so focused on the fax-process that when Danny calls I am at a total blank at what to say and need to hang up to review my thoughts.  When I do I start bawling all over the place until danny needs to go and call me back later, which he does about an hour later.  During this hour I have been riding my bike around literally trying to get lost, and by the time I answer the phone I feel better. 

FList, I ask you: what the fuck is wrong with me?

Today is not the start to a good day.  I am going to try to organize my thoughts as rationally as I can because I can't do it in my head.

( blah blah blah I am female and have emotional problems )

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!  But mostly,
HAPPY KICK OFF TO NANOWRIMO!!!

I'm really excited about my Nano this year, I 'm writing a rom-dram-com-thing about a writer in San Francisco whose girlfriend was just killed in an accident.  He's really depressed about it (as one would be), and meets this waitressing/bartending pink-haired-pierced-everything badass, who helps him confront the fact that she's gone but the memories of her are still there and not worth forgetting about.  I'm ridiculously excited about it and have written a pretty elaborate outline for it so far, but have left the ending blank, which I'm sure I'll hate myself for later but I don't want to get too ahead of myself before my characters screw me over with their free will thing.  As they always do.  Am looking forward to starting, because I'll probably come back to my dorm at two in the morning after party-hopping, so we're gonna have a really fun beginning to look forward too.  And by really fun I mean alcohol inspired.

WHOOP.  Is anyone else doing Nano this year? / How is everyone's Halloween going this year?

Tonight I'm going to a Halloween ball at the film school.  It's gonna be 1920's themed and it's gonna have an interactive murder mystery type thing and a jazz band and later a DJ and dancing and fun.  I'm really excited.  :B  But also already really tired.  I didn't take a nap today :( boo.  

Have been kind of lonely/depressed-ish today but I'm sure I'll get over that when I'm actually out and about GOING TO THE BALL WHEEE. Thursdays are hard because I never have anything to do after 11am, no real social interactions I have to go after.  I did go to the gym and burn hella calories (only to be gained back by eating a bunch of peanuts, whoops, but I'm sure I'll dance those off), but other then that I've just been kinda hanging around, watching The Office.  I'm bringing back Scrubs when I go home NEXT WEEKEND HURRAY I am so effing excited.  

A couple days ago I watched a movie called The Piano in my film aestetics class, which I still am not sure if I like.  :(  It made me feel a lot, which I admire in a movie, but I don't think I could bring myself to watch it again.  idk, has anyone else watched it?
I don't think I can watch romances anymore.  =/  If they're happy and comedic I get depressed and if they're sad and miserable I get depressed, if they're realistic I get even sadder.  Not that The Piano was even... well... idk, for me I viewed it first an foremost as a romance, but I guess you could say it was more dramatic then romantic.  Geez, The Piano.  Ughhhhh.

In unrelated news, who saw House? askjdhfkljasdfkjasdfkjluhnnnnnnnnn amazing.


why the hell is the river coming on on my itunes omg screw offffffff

I feel like things are going really well right now.  I wonder what it is that's really changed?  My perceptions?  The new involvement of Phi Sig once we got our bigs?  The fact that I've been keeping so busy, what with making my paddle, volunteering, etc etc more phi sig stuff?  I don't know and I'm not gonna try to think about it too much.  But I hope it stays.  I can't remember the last time I burst into tears, and for someone who's been doing it daily for the past while that says a lot.

I feel happy.  Happy and loved.

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